My 2019 favourites

2019 is over and what a year it was. I discovered some really great things in 2019, so I thought I would do a little round-up post for you all.

Favorite food - Has to be, for me HelloFresh meals. We signed up to HelloFresh this year and honestly have loved about 95% of the meals we have tried! I think my absolute favorite meal we had was the lamb meatball curry!

Favorite Film - This year I watched so many films this year but my favorite film of 2019 has to be Aladdin. I was so nervous about seeing this film because let's face it Robin Williams just made the original, but I LOVED that film! Will smith was EPIC as Genie and I loved the little extra bits Disney threw into the film this time.

Favorite series - RIVERDALE. Hands down. I had not watched this for so long and honestly, I have no idea why! It is brilliant! I think I'm a little bit in love with Jughead Jones!

Favorite book - I didn't get to read as many books as I wanted to in 2019, but I did get to read (or listen to, thank you audible) a few. My favorite was definitely Eve of man. What an amazing idea and so beautifully written.

Favorite Youtube channel - This year I discovered Phoebe and Me on Youtube. Jess is a brilliant mother and I wish I could budget like her! P is also an amazing little girl. I love their vlogs so much and cant wait to see all of the new content coming for 2020! You can find Jess here -

Favorite 2019 memory - Our first family holiday wins this hands down. What an amazing experience and I am so looking forward to having plenty more in the future!

Hello 2020... My 2020 goals!

Well, 2020 is here and time for my annual 'goals' post. I'm not going to write a massive introduction for this because let's face it, we all know what these posts are about!

Here are my goals for 2020 -

1. Stop buying things unnecessarily - I'm terrible at realizing I have money left and blowing it all on something ridiculous. This year I want to get my S**T together and really think about what I'm buying. My plan is, especially for big-ticket items, to not buy it for a few months. If I then still really want it, then I will sacrifice something else (normally Costa) to save for it.

2. Make healthier choices - I said lose weight last year, and while I came into 2020 a few pounds lighter then I started 2019, I definitely didn't get to where I wanted to be. I don't like to feel pressured and I think that's why I gave up with slimming world. So this year I'm just planning on enjoying myself, learning to love myself and make much healthier choices. I have already uped my water intake (not hard I never drank water) and eat so many more portions of vegetables than I did before. Things can only get better.

3. Make the most of my time with Harry - I realized last year that Harry is growing up really fast and in September he will be at school and won't be asking me to play with him constantly. So I'm going to make the most of it while he still asks me. You never know when it will stop

4. Take more photos - I'm never not going to have this on my list. With Harry growing up so fast I don't think I'll ever be happy with the number of photos I take.

5. Be happier - We have a very hard year ahead of us but my goal is to get through it and come out of it smiling!

Goodbye 2019...

2019 was a very big year for us, as a family, as parents and even as individuals. We definitely had lots of highs and plenty of low points too! I thought it would be really nice to write a round-up post for our 2019! I love reading these and I think that it will be lovely to show Harry in the future too!
2019 started pretty well for us. Sam and I working at jobs we enjoyed with great friends. We decided in January that it was time we started introducing Harry to the potty. He had been obsessed with the toilet for a good couple of weeks before this point and was bringing us a nappy to change him when he filled his nappy. Harry is still not potty trained but knows what the potty is for and making great progress! January was also filled with cold walks and warm coats. February for us was pretty uneventful, to be honest, but we made lots of effort to see our friends and Harry had some wonderful playdates! We are looking forward to plenty more this year!

March brought with it preparations for Harry's birthday, We didn't do anything different for Harry's 3rd birthday apart from he was super excited as Nanna, mumbles and Doo Doo (my mum, sister, and brother) came with us this time. I honestly think Harry has had enough of sea life for a while, he's still obsessed with sharks, but for his 4th birthday, we are considering either Woburn Safari Park so Harry can see some real elephants as he ADORES elephants or Peppa Pig world. Whichever we don't do for his birthday we will be doing over the summer holidays so he won't miss out at all!

April, May, and June were fine, nothing really worth mentioning, but then we got some very bad news at the beginning of July when the company I worked for went bust and I was made redundant. I love working and so to be suddenly out of a job was a hard thing to cope with at first. I went to a very dark place mentally for a few weeks, to be honest. But then the summer holidays started and I had Harry with me every day. I haven't been able to spend proper time with Harry in so long so this was AMAZING. I really felt like we were bonding in a way we couldn't before because I was always working. We got into an amazing routine and with the way Sam's shifts worked out we also got some great family
time over July, then mid-August I went back to work but that really didn't stop the fun. Harry and I finally got our first ever passports in August, ready for what was possibly the highlight of our 2019... Our first ever family holiday! 

We were incredibly lucky that my mum, brother, and sister paid for Harry, Sam and I to go to Menorca with them for our 10th anniversary in Septemeber! We honestly had the best time and
Harry loved the villa and especially loved going on an airplane! We had the best time and honestly are hoping to go back very soon.

October was uneventful for us but then in November, we decided that at 3 and a half it was time Harry got rid of his dum. It was a night full of mixed emotions, only really for us! Harry didn't even seem to notice but I was a mess! I definitely didn't want him to get rid of his last 'baby' thing, but proud of him for doing it so brilliantly!
December was a difficult month, usually, in December I'm full of Christmas cheer, but I just wasn't feeling it, which is funny because it honestly turned out to be on of the best Christmases.
December was particularly hard because in the middle of the month we found out that Harry will have to have his open-heart surgery in early 2020. It's not something we expected but I don't want to go too much into it in this post. Maybe I'll do another closer to the time or just after letting you know our experience.

But that was pretty much our year. I think my favorite thing of 2019 had to be hearing Harry say gracias (thank you) while in Spain. And seeing his face Christmas morning of course.

How was your 2019? 

My top tips for starting a new job

So this week I started my new job! Being made redundant really affected my mental health and I knew I wanted to get back into work as soon as possible and while I had the best time off with my monkey, I was over the moon to be offered a new job!

I am currently working as a claims handler for used car warranties. It's Monday to Friday 9 -5 which is perfect with Sam's shifts. I've moved jobs a couple of times since Harry having Harry so thought I would share some tips I've learned to make the whole experience easier, because let's face it, starting a new job is never easy!

1. Put your outfit all together the night before.

This one may seem like common sense but honestly, it is the biggest time saver for me. I like to put my whole outfit on one hanger and then hang my weeks worth of outfits in my wardrobe. In the morning when I need to get ready I can just grab the hanger and I'm ready to go! No running around looking for tights or trying to decide which top goes better with my jeans or shoes. Obviously, if you wear a uniform, do this with the uniform too for easy access.

2. Get your bag ready the night before.

I LOVE watching what's in my bag videos on YouTube and watch these obsessively in the days leading up to staring my new job. I then write a list of all the things I need and buy these specifically. I then rewatch the videos while packing my bag the day before to ensure I haven't missed anything. My bag is then ready and all I need to do is to pop my phone and whatever lipstick I'm using that day in as I'm leaving and go! I'll be posting a 'what's in my work bag' soon if you are interested in knowing what I take to work with me.

3. Relax and pamper!

The night before my first day I go up around 7pm just as Harry is going to bed to start my relax and pamper routine. I'm a firm believer in making a good first impression and while you may have already met your new boss at your interview, it is important to me to make a good first impression on your new colleagues too! So the night before my first day I have a long soak in the bath, wash my hair, do my skincare routine and usually a face mask. I will also shave my legs, even though no one will see then because I NEVER have bare legs, but it makes me feel more put together and comfortable.

4. Get yourself used to getting to bed early and getting up early.

If like me you have a while off before starting your new job you may have gotten into the habit of waking up later and staying up late. So about a week before starting I force myself to get up at the time I would normally be getting up for work, I then try to get to bed at a decent time meaning by the time I need to get up and ready for work I'm completely used to it and I'm not in a rush or worried about being late which is a big fear of mine!

5. Plan your route before you need it. 

Make sure you know exactly how to get to work, whether you be going by car, bus walking or cycling. Always make sure you know how long it's going to take you and leave in plenty of time. I like to make sure I have time to grab a cup of coffee when I get to work so leave around 10 minutes earlier than needed.

I hope you find these tips helpful next time you start a new job! And good luck to you!

Making the most of having some time off!

Working full time as a parent, let me tell you, it is not easy. So when I was made redundant back in the beginning of July, I was worried about how we were going to cope moneywise but I was a little relieved. I was finally going to be able to spend some quality time with Harry. 

As you are probably aware, I went back to work full time when Harry was 7 months old. While this was totally my choice and what worked best for our family, it was one of the hardest things Ive ever had to do. But now I was getting to have some time with him and i really wanted to make the most of it. 

I am now back to work full time and got really lucky that I am working a perfect 9-5 job. I was out of work for a total of five weeks. After my first week, Harry broke up from Nursery for the summer. We had decided this year to take Harry out of Nursery in the school holidays as it would be expensive and my mum was happy to help out. Lucky we did because we would have never been able to pay the bill while I was off. 

It took a week or so for Harry and I to get into a routine, working around nap times and Sam's shifts, but when we finally did it felt great, I even found time to do a proper clean of the house which it seriously needed and Harry and I got some fun times in too! 

Here are some of the photos we took! We also tried out some of the Free things to do in summer I spoke about in my last post! 

I'm really going to miss these times with my little man but I get every single weekend with him now and am looking forward to some more fun days! 

Big Changes...

So, this post is quite a personal one. If you don’t follow me on Twitter or know me personally, this will be all new information for you, but something big has gone on in our personal lives.

I debated for the longest time about whether to even talk about this on here, because its so personal, but also it affects lots of the posts and I write and had been planning on uploading.

So two weeks ago, I was off work with Harry as he had picked up chickenpox. Sam and I have always worked out taking time off fairly and take it in turns. We knew when Harry had been diagnosed with chickenpox we would need childcare for around a week, so decided that I would take off the Monday and Tuesday and Sam would be off Wednesday and Thursday – I then would be off for my normal day off on Friday.

Around quarter to six, I was sitting in our living room and my phone started to ring. I looked at who was calling and saw a mobile number I didn’t recognize so I ignored it. Am I the only person who doesn’t answer numbers they don’t recognize? Basically, if you aren’t saved in my contacts don’t bother calling me. I’m not answering.

I had a voicemail so listened to it. Then I googled the company the woman was calling from and it came up auditors. She had said in the message she was calling about the company that I worked for so my anxiety started up. What had I done? If you didn’t know I worked for a small car insurance company.

I then got a call from a friend at work who told me the company had gone into administration and we had all been made redundant.

So I am currently job-hunting and being a stay at home mum. I’ve never not had a job and it been really hard for me to adjust, but two weeks in, I think Harry and I have fallen into a nice routine. I’m really happy with the timing as Harry now only goes to nursery in the term time so he’s off for the summer.

I have a few interviews lined up which is scary. I hate job interviews, but I think the scariest part is not actually getting another job because we actually can’t afford for me to be out of work.

I wanted to put this post out here as a lot of my content is about working full time, which I am obviously not doing right now, so a lot more of my posts may be about being at home and job searching for a while. Please bare with me! 

Fingers crossed for me guys!!

Free things to do in the summer!

Summer always makes me think of day trips out and they always seem to cost the earth. So with that in mind, I started looking at things we could do for free over the summer months.
One of the things we have always loved doing together is going for a walk. Usually, more recently this involves a trip to the swings and slide, but I honestly think Harry likes the actual walk just as much as the swings and slide! It’s a chance for him to run around like the monkey he is. Harry definitely takes after Sam with his love of being outdoors!

We tend to make the walks a little more interesting for Harry, now he’s a little older and also making it a little more educational – although there’s absolutely nothing wrong with just letting him run free across the fields sometimes! We like to point out the wildlife in the park as Harry is obsessed with animals and discuss what noises we think all of the different animals make.

Another suggestion I had from Victoria at was to Go for a nature walk and collect leaves and flowers to do leaf rubbings and press the flowers to make pictures – which sounds like a brilliant idea and one I know Harry would absolutely love. This would be a great idea for all seasons too – not restricted to just the summer months!

We are incredibly lucky to be able to afford to rent a house with a garden – I say lucky, Sam would never live anywhere without a garden – and so sometimes we spend the whole day in the garden with Harrys various outdoor toys and sometimes just simply reading a book or doing some coloring. Anything to get away from Hey Duggee on the TV which seems to be Harry’s favorite at the minute.
Arts and crafts are big in our house and I remember as a child making things from the recycling leftover – there is nothing better than a large cereal box in my opinion! – so I can’t wait to do this with Harry.

Another suggestion we had was from Becky at which is quite honestly the most brilliant thing I think I’ve heard all summer and I will be doing this will Harry as soon as possible is to Set up your own obstacle course using pillows from the sofa, crawl under a sheet, through legs of a chair etc. use whatever is around the house. Great for indoors or in the garden depending on the weather. Another suggestion that is great for all seasons!!

Lisa from said Go to a country park. The the majority are free and have some of the best play parks you will come across. Perfect for bikes, scooters, and picnics too.

Claire said water painting has always been a winner with all ages. Give them a bowl or bucket of water and some paintbrushes and let them paint anywhere they like outside. – find her suggestions at

Have you got any other ideas?

Passions from my childhood I want Harry to love

Everyone has things from their childhood that they still look back on fondly. Things that when they see them later in life still bring a huge smile to their faces. I have plenty of them and most of them are things I want to pass on to Harry.

When we are talking about my childhood it seems crazy not to talk about Harry Potter. These were the biggest influence of my life (Note my son, who is also called Harry) I was seriously late to the game with reading the Harry Potter books, the first book was published in 1997 when I was 5 but I didn’t read them until I was in year 5 in school and my teacher, knowing how much I love to read put me on to them. I am so ashamed to admit that the first chapter in The Philosophers Stone bored me so much I put it down and read The Chamber of Secrets first. I fell in love with the wizarding world there and then and went back to read Philosophers Stone again.

My love for Harry Potter is one of the things I most want to pass on to Harry. We are very lucky that Harry adores books and while right now at 3 years old, his attention span is just not up to a chapter book – we have tried a chapter a night but he gets easily bored – I really want to keep persevering with this and now that he is managing to sit through a short film I am looking forward to snuggling up with the films with him!

I remember in the autumn when my nan would take me down to find the blackberry bushes, we would pick the bushes until they were bare and then we would go back to my grandparent's maisonette and spend the rest of the day making blackberry jam and blackberry and apple pies. Some of my fondest memories were being in the kitchen turning those sour fruit into the tastiest treats. We would also go ‘pick your own’ every summer to do the same things.

I’m really lucky that my grandparents now have their own allotment meaning and my grandad still loves to send us out to pick fruit, whatever fruit is in season at that time you can guarantee it is growing in that allotment.

Now that Harry is walking and more confident, I can't wait to get him out in the allotment picking the fruit and then helping my nan and myself in the kitchen making those delicious treats. Harry already loves to help in the kitchen!

When the weather was crappy and we had nothing to do in our tiny little flat in North London, my mum would clear a huge space in the living room lay out a blanket and bring in all sorts of ‘picnic’ type treats. We called them our indoor picnics and the TV would be turned off our favorite teddies or barbies would sit with us and we would spend hours on that floor eating and chatting and laughing. I have already attempted this with Harry, and he likes the food bit at least!

Netflix go-to's

Who doesn’t love a good Netflix binge session? I hate to admit it but Netflix is the most visited website on my laptop and we use it load on out TV. I love that it has a massive range of programs and films and there are loads of things on there for Harry too.

I have to say I must have watched something for every genre on Netflix and there isn’t much I haven’t loved. There are things on Netflix that I keep coming back to again and again so I thought I would write up a quick post about my favourite things to watch on Netflix. I constantly see posts on Facebook asking for recommendations of what to watch on Netflix so maybe this will help those people too!

1.       Gossip Girl. I LOVE GOSSIP GIRL. I honestly don’t think I watched it before I discovered Netflix and honestly don’t even remember it being on TV before, but I had heard so much about it so thought I would give it a go while I was at Uni. I don’t know what it is about this programme, but I have loved every single second of it.

Its still a go to for me. In fact, I’m currently re-watching it for about the 100th time. It never gets old. The characters are brilliant, and the story line keeps you on the edge of your seat. I’m also a little bit in love with Chuck – Maybe more than a little bit…

2.       Friends. What 90’s baby doesn’t love friends. When the whole 10 seasons went on Netflix I was over the moon. Safe to say I have watched it all multiple times now and still cry my eyes out at the last episode.

3.       Making a Murderer. If you don’t know me personally you will not know but I love true crime documentaries and Netflix is full of them! My favourite has to be Making a Murderer. I had never heard of Steven Avery or Brendan Dassey before this and to be honest didn’t watch this until I was on maternity leave, but I binge watched the first season in one day and the second season in about the same amount of time. Have you seen it? Do you think they are innocent?

4.       Blackfish. I’m not sure how I came across this, but I think it is the most powerful documentary I have ever seen. Being a child of the Free Willy age seeing the turmoil Orca’s go through at SeaWorld hit me hard. Growing up I had been desperate to visit a SeaWorld and then since watching this I have vowed never to visit there and I have spoken to others who have felt the same way after watching this – I have watched it multiple times and it hits me just as hard every single time.

5.       Gavin And Stacey. Wow – Who doesn’t LOVE Gavin and Stacey?! This is my favourite show, not just on Netflix but possibly ever. Gavin and Stacey is my go-to whenever I’m ill or feeling down and the fact it is on Netflix makes it all so much easier. Also, who’s excited for Christmas day?!

What are your go to Netflix shows?

Happy Fathers Day - A thank you note.

Happy Fathers Day! Today I wanted to put a really quick post up just to say thank you to the three most important men in Harry’s life (and mine!)

Happy Fathers day to Sam. I don’t talk about him too much on here because he isn’t the greatest fan of it, but on today I just want to say thank you. Thank you for being everything I ever wanted in a dad to my children. Thank you for always putting Harry first and stepping up with this crazy journey we have found ourselves on. I know I couldn’t be the mum I am today if I didn’t have you with me. You make everything easier and the difficult things bearable.

Sam, you are definitely Harry’s favourite person, and always have been, and I know that Harry is your everything which is all I have ever asked for. We both love you so much.

Happy Fathers day to my Dad. We haven’t always had the best relationship, probably because we are so alike, but on this special day I just wanted to say thank you, for everything you do to make me being a parent easier.

You have also been the most amazing Grandad to our extra special little boy. I know that Harry’s diagnosis was hard on you, but I am so proud of the way you have stepped up and made the effort to learn so much more and try and make sure Harry has everything he will ever need. Thank you for that.

And to Sam’s dad, who has also been so much more then a father in law to me. Who has given me advice on things I needed and taught me things that I never would have known before, like how amazing real ale is! Thank you for the support you have given us as a family and for all the fun times.

Thank you for everything you do for Harry, that I know must put you out of your way a lot of the times. Harry is the luckiest little boy in the world having you in his life and he truly loves his Pops. We really couldn’t do this without the support you give us and we are so grateful to have you.

These three men have all had a hand in making me the woman I am today. Without their love and guidance, I don’t like to think where I would be. But more importantly these men have made Harry the cheeky, brave and confident little boy he is today. And for that I will never be able to say thank you enough – and probably don’t.

Happy Father’s Day!

10 things about being a parent

So, as you may know by now, I have been a mum for just over 3 years. It has been an amazing 3 years and I can honestly say I would not change it for the world.

Being a mum has also taught me a lot! So here are the 10 biggest things I’ve learned since becoming a mum!

1.       Everyone has opinions. But honestly no one else’s opinion matters! You want to bottle feed? Good for you. Breastfeeding works for you? That’s great. You went back to work. Well done! You decided to stay at home? Great!  What works for you isn’t what works for others so let's try and stop being so judgemental yeah?

2.       Random strangers will touch your baby. And you will want to murder them on the spot. I’ll never forget taking Harry out for the first time and an elderly woman stopped me and started touching him in his pram. I briskly walked off (may have run, not going to lie) before I said something or became violent.

3.       Going on a night out really isn’t worth it anymore. Getting a babysitter can be the main hurdle here but then when you finally have someone to look after your money for the night the effort of getting ready and staying awake to make it all worth it seems too much to handle. Then there are the hangovers… not fun with a three-year-old. It takes a really good reason for me to put all that effort in these days.

4.       Family time seems like a good idea, but usually results in me shouting Sam huffing and puffing and Harry throwing a tantrum. Threenanger is not a fun stage of life. I’m dreading Harry’s teenage years!
5.       Kids are expensive. I can easily drop £150 on clothes for Harry that four weeks later no longer fit him. Then there’s me running around in clothes that I picked up a year ago from Primark (Yay for t-shirts for £2).

6.       Your body will never be the same. It has done something magical but it's not going to bounce back. No one ever told me about the postnatal bump, I always thought my bump would disappear as soon as Harry was born – How wrong was I? I also have zero bladder control now. Thanks, Harry!

7.       You will cry for next to no reason for the rest of your life. Harry grew out of a pair of shoes the other week and I burst into tears. I also cried my eyes out getting rid of his 18-24 months clothes. Sam must think I’m a mad woman honestly.

8.       Going to the toilet without an audience feels weird. Honestly. If Harry isn’t there, I feel strange going to the toilet. It’s a good strange though – not having to defend the stream of pee (and my privates) from tiny toddler hands make a nice change!

9.       Talking of pee, who knew you could get so excited about someone peeing in a tiny plastic toilet – Welcome to parenthood!

10.   Oh how your social media feeds change – My feed used to be full of pictures of me and Sam, dressed up or me and friends on nights out (there are a lot of drunk pictures of me out there on facebook!) then you have a baby and BOOM! Your feed and camera roll on your phone is now full of pictures of chubby cheeks and it takes you a full minute of scrolling to find the last picture of you that you took!.

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