It's Okay To Not Know What You Want From Life

 I turned 30 this year. 30. 3. 0. 

In the lead up to it, 30 seemed like such a big deal. It felt like I was going to have to be a proper adult now,  and finally sort out what it is I want from life. 

I still don't know what I want to do for work. I like my job at the moment and had a promotion at the beginning of the year but I know its not necessarily something I want to do for the rest of my life. I put so much pressure on myself in the lead up to my birthday, losing my mind because I don't have my dream job, because I have no idea what that is. 

At 17, chasing my university course, I had everything planned out. Media Production, directing, writing. Then I dropped out of uni half way through my second year because I hated my course and I didn't want to do media production - don't get me wrong I adore media production, and I learnt loads, but I don't think the particular course I chose was for me. 

Writing has always been a goal, but I have no idea what kind of writing. I guess that's why I started this blog, so I could write something. I also still dabble in short stories, because writing fiction is my one true love but I'm not sure I would want to make that my job. 

So where am I going with this? Truthfully, I'm not too sure. I just wanted to put it out there that plans don't always work out and whether you are 13 or 30, its okay to not know what you want from life. I still have a really good life, with a wonderful partner, brilliant son and we are happy. Would I like to find my dream job? Sure that would be great but for now, I'm okay with where I am, and I'm not going to put too much pressure on myself to find out what that is for now, and I'm going to enjoy getting back into writing for my blog and my short stories, you never know, maybe one day this will be my job. 


  1. It's ok not to know what you want from life as an young adult. But 18 -29 is the time for one to explore different career options. It's good to at least have a goal or an idea of what you want to do. For me passion is everything. As they say, love what you do and you will never work another day in your life. Thanks for sharing your thoughts.

  2. It's definitely okay to not know! I just published my first book in my mid-late 30s! And it's been a lifelong dream. Just took a while to get there. Keep on keepin on.

  3. Wow. This is exactly where I'm at right now. Feeling sooo lost but know it's normal and that it will pass/I will figure stuff out eventually. Keep enjoying life!

  4. Oh my gosh, I am in such a similar boat! I have less than six months until I hit the big 3-0 and I’ve been doing a bit of soul searching and it feels like such a big deal. I’ve been worrying about feeling a bit lost so it’s nice to know I’m not alone with that. We just have to keep going and see where we end up, trust the process!


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