Lessons I learned in 2020

I won't keep talking about what a year 2020 was, however I thought a positive post is just what we need to be able to look back on and remember good things about a year that gave us so much bad. 

I learnt a lot of things in 2020. Things about myself that I had no idea about before. 2020 taught me that I am stronger than I knew. I had the strength to get through one of the scariest and hardest experiences I have ever been put through. I gave my beautiful baby boy to the worlds greatest children's hospital in June and asked them to fix something that was broken. 

My tiny 6lb 6oz baby, who has grown and developed into the most amazing little boy needed to have open heart surgery to repair an AVSD and hole in his heart, and back in December 2019, when we first found out Harry would have to have surgery I never thought I would be able to get through it. I knew Harry would smash it and Sam would be fine but I thought I was going to be a mess and not be able to cope. 

When it came to it I was strong. I'm not going to lie and say I didn't cry and it didn't kill me inside, but I rallied and got through it and I came out the other side knowing that I am strong enough to do anything if it means Harry would be safe and healthy.

2020 also taught me how much I love being a mum. Before 2020 I knew I loved my son, I knew that I would do anything for him, but I always worried that I wasn't cut out to be a mum. Then in March Lockdown came and I had no choice but to step up and be a full time parent. It was a hard adjustment to make at first but I can honestly say I loved every minute spent with my boy. I got to know him in a way I never had and while it wasn't perfect I can honestly say I actually loved Lockdown and I now try and spend much more time at home with my family because I adore being a mum. 

I guess with this post, I just wanted to say, Thank You 2020, for the lessons!

Here's to a much better 2021!

What are the positives you have taken from 2020? 

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